Friday, June 18, 2010

You Guys Are The Best of The Best


Good Morning everyone,
It's been five weeks since the situation with Kat and although I've gotten some challenging responses, they don't even cover a good 1% of the GREAT ENCOURAGING responses I've received. You guys are amazing! I know very well that first impressions are hard to overcome, and for most of you my "first impression" was hardly impressionable at all. However, from THEE very bottom of my heart I appreciate and I thank all of you that did give me a second chance to prove Kat wrong and to show you the real me.

Many of you know how much I truly do appreciate you all because my actions have shown it. My number is still the same and I still get DAILY text messages from you guys & I still write back. I've actually come to think of you guys as distant friends, pen pals & etcetera. I read my video comments, emails, blog comments, text messages, & tweets everyday and you guys never cease to amaze me. Perfect strangers reach out to me & I do no less than extend my hand back ... That's love. That's respect and that's all I need.

Agian.. Thank You Sincerely!
No Pressure ..

-Pusha


xoxo

Thursday, May 13, 2010

No Pressure PUSHA

Hi Everyone,
First I'd like to thank you for giving my blog the time of day.. Much appreciated. I currently have a very little voice right now, almost a whisper compared to Andrea (KatStacks). However, if I could only be heard by one person, I'd still tell my story. So again, thank you.

Many of you may know that I am the girl from the World Star Hip Hop video with Andrea (wrongfully attacking Choppa & Chad OchoCinco). I know I know ... Huge mistake. Don't shoot me down just yet.

I just want to give you guys a more in-depth version of my story so that way you can have a chance to come to a more stable conclusion about me & not just judging me off mere hearsay. However you feel about me after this would be easier for me to accept because at least now I know you have a better understanding and you have REASON for feeling the way you might feel.

So here it is starting from as far back as I can go:

Andrea and I went to middle school together before she dropped out and moved away (according to her). My neighbor (considered a distant cousin) was good friends with her & they hung out a lot, which in turn, gave Andrea and I the opportunity to have a friendship as well and we did. I haven't heard from her in YEARS up until about a week ago.

I will pause here for a minute to follow up and say, with that being said, I have NO CLUE as to if the said rumors about her previous meetings with Bow Wow, Young Money, Aaron Carter.. etc are true. Everything that happened with her prior to our meeting is her business and she's never spoken to me about it. I can and will ONLY give information about everything that happened AFTER our meeting because I'm not here to spread lies & rumors, I only know the truth.

Okay, so I was in a room on tinychat and it just so happened to be that Andrea was in the same room. I was cammed up, so everyone in the room can see my face. She noticed me and typed in the conversation box that she recognized me from school and I recognized her as well (she wasn't cammed up, but I noticed her name). So she asked me to follow her & I did. She followed me back, then over tiny chat I told her I would DM her my number & she said okay. A few minutes after I did, she sent me a text message saying "Hey it's Kat". Of course after that, we spent a few minutes getting caught up. She asked about my son & I asked about hers.

Despite everything that I'd heard about her, I didn't know KatStacks .. I knew Andrea & that's who I was talking to. I even asked her what size her son wears & if he needed anything. So I gave her the benefit of the doubt and stayed as far away from judgement as I possibly could. Now, a day or two later she DM'd me on twitter and asked if I could go somewhere with her to do a "drop" because she didn't want to go alone. I agreed. She said we would go around 6pm, which was cool with me 'cause I got off work at 5 that day. However, we ended up not going to do the drop because the guy said she was too late. ( If there ever was a guy.. for all I know this all could have been a set-up ). Forgive me if I'm wrong, but I was raised to hope for the best, but prepare for the worst in ANY situation.

So anyway, she said "Whatever, we'll just do a video". So, a little later I went to go pick her up because she didn't want to do the video where she lived. She said something about her son being sleep & I had to get directed there by her mother. She asked if I had a video camera & I said yes. So I told her, "Don't worry about it, I have a friend that will let me do it at his house". She didn't know him prior to that. She agreed & we went there. Mind you, this was supposed to be a video of just two friends chillin', drinking, having fun.. etc. Not much harm. Unexpectedly, she decided to make the video about Choppa from Diddy's "Making The Band". It was she & I and two other people in the room ( who will remain nameless ). Before we started the video, we sat around drinking & exploring our own Twitter & FaceBook pages. After an hour or so of that, she then started directing what would be said in the video. By this time, I'm drunk & not much aware of my actions (or careless rather). Still no excuse however. Anyway, she was like "Krys, shake your ass 'cause it will get more hits".. Then she said, "Okay, what are you guys gonna say in the video?" ( to the other 2 people in the room). Nobody really answered because we were a little thrown off by the unexpected topic.. So the guys she began talking about his career as to say "Who is he anyway?".. So she started recording & we all kind of just went along. ( As you can tell because in the video I'm not really saying much of anything.. Just pretty much "co-signing" the things she was saying ) .. as I've seen a few people comment under the video.

I want to pause again and apologize again to Choppa.. also to Chad. I don't know you, I have nothing against you & actually admire you as one of the most entertaining athletes. I was wrong. I've come to learn that YOU personally gave that number out over twitter anyway ... *Pats self on the back*

Moving along, after the video was finished, we sat around for a while. Then we decided to go get some food since we'd been drinking. I don't have an appetite when I drink, so my friend just decided to get her a bag of chips, a cookie, and a soda. After we bought the food back, we sat just a few minutes more & decided to leave. Although I'm usually very good at handling my liquor & maintaining basic skills such as balance & judgement (just not my actions) .. That was still very silly of me to drive under the influence. Especially with the responsibility of another life. So we headed to her home and on the way, I was stopped by the police and I actually tweeted about it.. The officer ended up giving me a ticket & I'm suprised he didn't notice I was D.U.I ( if he did, he said nothing about it and let me go). So I dropped her off & drove to a near-by family member's house and fell asleep there around 5am then woke up around 7-7:30am for work the next morning.

So here is where the drama begins.... Early that morning Andrea sent a text message to me saying that the video had been posted on WSHH.com. When I got to work I looked at the video and was COMPLETELY humiliated by my actions. I just didn't know what to do to express my embarrassment & sorrow. So, later in the day I saw that Choppa was online in a tiny chat room and I joined it hoping this could be my chance to tell the truth & it was. I cammed up & he didn't recognize me at first so I wrote little messages in the conversation box trying to expose myself. Fortunately, one of his friends noticed & then called Choppa to let him know. Their conversation was muted, but when he came back on he called me out saying "Pusha, why would you lie about f***ing me on worldstar & why would you associate yourself with someone like her?".. etc & I admitted to the truth. Of course when I did, the whole room got loud and went a little nuts for a second.. when it calmed down Choppa and I exchanged a few words & I got the chance to tell him that I would be making a video soon about it.. In a few words or more he said Okay & then banned me from the room. I was at work, so I had to wait till later to do the video. In between the time of the confession over tiny chat & the time I had to make the video, Andrea had found out that I told the truth & was ABOVE & BEYOND upset. She started posting lies about me via her twitter page & I responded to none of them. I refused to fight with her because she & I both know the truth & you just can't fight the truth with a lie. You will fail miserably every time.

So, a little later, she posted a ustream video about me spreading rumors (all lies that I will address a little later in this blog). She also assisted in giving my number out & I received massive calls while I was at work. I have no reason to run and nothing to hide, so I did not change my number. I accepted as many calls as I could and spoke to many people. People from Canada, Louisiana, Miami, Seattle, & more. So many calls, that I depleted my minutes. I also received countless text messages and replied to every last one & wrote back to the same people more than once.. No pressure. I don't know what they tried to accomplish in doing so, but I was actually grateful they did because it gave me a chance to tell the truth & people listened and responded very well. There were even a few people who didn't even know who I was & I told them; gave them my twitter name & all. My number is STILL the same. No pressure.

People kept asking why I won't respond to her or why I'm not retaliating by releasing her number... For what? So she can change it & go about her life? So I can stoop to her level? .. No. Never. In fact, I deleted her number. She will get absolutely NONE of my attention. That's what's keeping her stories alive. Everyone's attention. The best thing ANYONE could have done is to IGNORE her. So, that I will do. So, later in the day.. Big Mike ( Choppa's manager ) called me & asked what I would do in reponse to her video. I told him that I would make a video, which is on youtube & Choppa's blog right now. He asked me to send it to him when I finished it, & he would send it to NicoleBitchie & WSHH and so I did ( however, I've yet to see the video on either site ).. I guess it's because I'm not giving them what they want. (Drama).

Ever since then I've been getting NOTHING BUT POSTIVE FEEDBACK.. & I truly can't express my gratitude enough. That's all I want & I appreciate everyone. Which is why I reply to everyone that writes me & I follow everyone that requests it. #NoPressure. As I've said before.. Thru all this, I still haven't taken a shot at her & I wont. So why question my loyalty? Why question my realism & honesty? My character? My self-respect?

Now is when I'm going to clear some of the rumors she's said about me.. I'll try to remember as many as I can. She blocked me, so I can't go look for them myself. If you know of one that I missed, just point it out & I will give an honest answer.

1. I am not a stripper. I've been at the same job on and off ( due to my pregnancy. I went on leave, and came back after giving birth ) since 2007 when I graduated from high school. I'm damn good at what I do & that's why I'm a manager. #NoPressure ( I work at a car dealership )

2. My son's father did not pistol whip me. I called him out on his infidelity a while back & I tried to leave. He didn't want me to go so he pulled the gun out on me & pushed it to my face & head. He expressed his sorrow & has never physically hurt me since then & I cut of my hair months before that even happened. #NoPressure

3. I don't live with my grandma in a 2 bedroom house with 10 kids.... lol For 1 it's impossible considering my grandmother was declared deceased in April of 2002. #NoPressure

4. I did not tell her I hunched Choppa. I've never met him in my life. #NoPressure

5. She said I should know "b****es get paid to shake their a**" so I guess she thinks I should have too.. Lol a job is something you get paid for doing... Shaking my a** is not my occupation. Those "B****es" can have that and so can you. I get paid to manage my department and sell cars. #NoPressure

6. Yes I got a ticket that night for speeding. Um how can I say this ?.. #NoPressure. I have a real job that pays well. A $200 ticket is #NoPressure.

7. She called me a groupie... Groupie Definition: ( Via Dictionary.com ) n.
a young woman who follows a band seeking romance with the band members. ( I don't know ANY rappers) #NoPressure

8. She called me a drunk b***h.... Lol .. this one is too easy. Handle my lightweight. #NoPressure

Guys, any questions any comments, anything... I'm open to them all. I hope now, you can come to a better understanding of this situation. I am in no way shape or form justifying my actions.. I am simply expressing my sorrow. For all of my attackers ... #NoPressure. For all of my supporters .. #NoPressure.

Thanks a milli for reading! I 'preciate you ! =)

P.S. I'm still not gonna retaliate. If you're aiming at me .. You're shooting blind. You have no target.

- @KrysDatPUSHA #NoPressure
- NoPressurePusha@Gmail.com
- Call after 9pm or just text me..